What ticks you off?

People who think they're too cool for everything, people who assumes that they know you when in reality they actually don't. Someone close to my heart who has the ability to read my mind just by looking at my facial expression. Guys who still ask for your number even if you already told him no. Rude people. Pretentious people who are trying so hard to fit in. People who tells me that I've changed without considering the word 'MATURITY'.

Tell me something I don't know.

Crazy Girl, As Usual.

We did a little shopping yesterday, my sister and I, at Megamall. We went to Forever21 and as usual, it made me feel like I just died and went to heaven. I love what I wore at the mall yesterday, I think it made me look very laid-back and geeky at the same time!

Anyway, I don't know what you call this head gear, but I swear it's too cute!

And this:

Seriously, what was Forever21 thinking? Haha! Selling earmuffs in a tropical country? Oh well, someone bought it anyway. I don't know why, but maybe because the color is too cute you wanna eat it.

My lunch at some coffee shop:

Caramel Frap: 240 calories

Cheeseburger: 250 calories

Shoes that I love: Non-Fat

Fab clothes: Always sweet, never fattening

Let the wild rumpus begin!

Look how cute those earrings are! Just trying it out, modelo? Err.

Going home, tiring but a fun day with my sister!

Much love,

Ccinki 

Divisoria Invasion

One word: Divisoria. Okaaay. It's a noun but to Filipinos Divisoria is equals to shopping paradise!! My mom and I went there last December 07. We bought Christmas gifts for my cousins and her friends, because giving money is much more stressful. =) Too bad I didn't take a photo of what I wore that day cause I didn't bring Chloe (my DSLR) because I know it's gonna be one hell of a shopping mayhem with my favorite shopping buddy. (Haha.) To describe it, I wore gray stir-ups tights, Purple oversized men's V-Neck shirt and a flip-flop. Heels are not advisable please! And look what I got for myself:

FitFlop, not authentic but still cute! I got it for 300 bucks. =)

Leather belt for 130 bucks.

Dress, I will use this on December 23rd, my friend's wedding at Shangri-La Hotel. Would you believe I just got this dress for 400 bucks? What a treat! My favorite:

Purple Long Champ backpack. I'm loving Long Champ right now! I wanna have Zebra print oversized bag ala Kate Moss.

My hot pink/stuff scarf! For 100 bucks? This is definitely my favorite, now I can go boho or laid back, whatever suits my mood. =)

So does it make you wanna go hit the Philippines? 

Cartwheels, Pinwheels, Waterwheels

Ccinki

The Revenge of the Nerds

My body clock is definitely out of tune for three weeks now. I'm always on night shift and I don't sleep when  I get home but this morning I did. Woke up at 11:30 AM and I have to go to my dentist for my check-up since I had my braces back again, look:

You see, I'm suffering from Bruxism.


Definition:

The habitual, involuntary grinding or clenching of the teeth, usually during sleep, as from anger, tension, fear, or frustration.

Cause the dentist said that if I don't get it fixed as early as now, my teeth will probably look like this after 10 years:

Freaky huh?

Oh well, I've had braces before way back in High School so I didn't have any trouble adjusting with it, although it's really painful for the first two weeks. I'm just glad that having braces is not a big deal in our country. We all know that in the U.S. a lot of teenagers get bullied because of it, calling them mouth with train tracks, metal mouth, etc. Just like in Ugly Betty:

When I went home my bestfriend Renz called me (Overseas, she's in California) and we talked about the earphones she's selling:

So if any of you are interested you can email me through: ccinkifrancisco@rocketmail.com

She already bought my cameraaaaaaaaaa! It's true love, I can't define what I really felt when she told me that she got it already. I got sooo kilig! It's an analog camera, very vintage and girly. Here's a photo:

You have to use a film and have it developed since it's not digital, which makes it even more lovely! I still have to wait for 60 working days though for it to arrive. :( 

Speaking of vintage I saw this online shop called Archive Shop on Facebook and fell in-love with these clothes thy're selling!

I'm such a huge fan of vintage styles, flowy clothing material, flowery and I'm starting to love Salmon Pink shade too! Too bad the clothes are already SOLD OUT! 

Cartwheels, pinwheels, waterwheels

Ccinki

A Hopeless Romantic

If You Forget Me by Pablo Neruda

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

Love!

Turning the mobile to silent. Wiggling the toes. Taking the weight off. Getting a neck massage. Playing that catchy song. Beginning to zone out. Unwrapping the Kit Kat bars. Letting the phone ring. Feeding the panda. Kicking off the shoes. Slowly winding down. Loosening the waistband. Getting ready for a lovelybreak. Brewing the coffee. Taking a deep breath. Putting the kettle on. Switching to autopilot. Firing up some fun. Stretching a big stretch. Grabbing a quick 40 winks. Putting the gear in neutral. Finding the bunny slippers. Getting all cozy and snug. <3

Survey by Fatso

surveyy'n it!

age? 21
height? 5’4”
hating your body? YES

i am
[ ] anorexic
[ ] ednos
[x ] bulimic
[x ] living off diet pills
[ ] hungry
[ ] thirsty
[x ] drinking something
[ ] under 100lbs
[x ] starving yourself
[x ] participating in a fast

people
[x ] ask if i’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] call me fat
[x] say i’m skinny
[] say i’m ugly
[x] say i’m pretty
[] spread rumors about me
[x ] force me to eat
[ ] say i eat too much
[ ] wish i’d eat more

i wish
[x ] i was thin
[x] i had a better body
[x ] i didn’t have to eat
[x] i could control myself
[x ] i was under 100lbs
[x] i could avoid food
[x ] i could hide what i am
[ x] i wasn’t fat
[x ] i was pretty

i love
[ ] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[ ] shaking
[ ] being weak
[x] losing weight
[] green tea
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

appearance
[ ] i am shorter than 5’4.
[x] i think i’m ugly sometimes
[x] i have many scars.
[x] i tan easily.
[x] i wish my hair was a different color.
[x] i have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] i have a tattoo.
[x] i am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x ] i have/had braces.
[] i wear glasses.
[x] i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[] i’ve been told i’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] i have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] i have/had piercings in places besides my ears.
[] i have freckles.

family
[x] i’ve sworn at my parents.
[ ] i’ve run away from home.
[ ] i’ve been kicked out of the house.
[x ] my biological parents are together.
[ ] i have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] i want to have kids someday.
[ ] i’ve had children.
[ ] i’ve lost a child.

relationships
[] i’m single
[x ] i’m in a relationship.
[ ] i’m engaged.
[ ] i’m married.
[ ] i’ve gone on a blind date.
[x] i’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x ] i miss someone right now.
[x] i have a fear of abandonment.
[x] i’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[x ] i’ve told someone i loved them when i didn’t.

honesty
[x] i’ve done something i promised someone else i wouldn’t
[x] i’ve done something i promised myself i wouldn’t.
[ ] i’ve snuck out of my house.
[x] i have lied to my parents about where i am.
[x] i am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] i’ve cheated while playing a game.
[x] i’ve cheated on a test.
[] i’ve been suspended from school.

bad times
[ ] i can’t swallow pills.
[x] i can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] i’ve slept an entire day when i didn’t need it.
[x] i’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] i’m addicted to self harm.
[ ] i’ve woken up crying
[x] i’ve lost weight
[x] i’ve gained weight
[x] my weight holds me back
[x] weight consumes me.
[ ] i’m at my thinnest
[x] i’m at my biggest
[ ] i’ve lost weight and kept it off
[x] i’ve lost weight but gained it back
[x] my weight affects my mood
[x] i weigh myself daily
[x] i am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[x] i thrive on compliments
[x] i feel bigger than people who are my size
[ ] i feel happy when i’m hungry
[x] i get depressed after i eat
[x] i’ve skipped a meal
[x] i’ve thrown food away
[x] i’ve spit food out
[x] i’ve fasted
[x] i’ve purged
[x] i’ve almost fainted from exhaustion

i’ve done
[] pain killers
[ ] lsd
[x] i keep my eating habits a secret
[x] i have a diet blog
[x] i look at thinspo
[x] i collect thinspo
[x] i’m doing this for me
[ ] i’m doing this for someone
[x ] i’m doing this to prove myself